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Jenna, like Spiral said, having a phobia isn't something to beat yourself up about. It's just a kind of glitch in your brain, where it's somehow gotten the idea that needles are the modern-day version of rabid mother cave bears. It's nothing more shameful than having a really bad back.

Have you tried to get in touch with any organisations that specifically deal with phobic disorders? I know where I live there's a Phobic Trust that from what I can see works like a company specifically for the support of people suffering from problems with phobias, anxiety, etc. They have therapists specifically trained to help with those problems and stuff like that. Perhaps there's an equivelent somewhere near you in your country? You could search on the internet for something, and I know there are online support groups that could help you with figuring out where to go as well.
I do seriously suggest getting professional help. It sounds like your phobia is too severe for you to cope with on your own - and you shouldn't have to. Yeah, finding decent counsellors and therapists can be a hit and miss affair, but don't let the rubbish ones discourage you. Help from the good ones is too important. Hell, before I found my current counsellor I went through two women who were so demented and weird that they should have been counselled themselves. I'm everlastingly grateful that I kept trying.

Apart from that, you can try and do some work with breathing. When you're really afraid, adrenalin floods your body & makes your heart pound like mad. As you'll no doubt be aware As a result of that, you also tend to hyper-ventilate of course, which makes everything worse.
So. If you can slow down and deepen your breathing, two things happen. One, the symptoms of hyperventilation get better which will make you feel better. Two, slowing your breathing slows your heartbeat. Slowing your heartbeat slows the production of adrenalin. Lowering adrenalin makes you feel less afraid, better able to think, and more in control of the situation - basically it starts taking you out of that panic mode.
Okay, so doing this isn't going to work like magic and poof! enable you to face needles. However, sitting down, closing your eyes and concentrating on slow deep breathing could help calm you before and after you have to deal with them or think about them. It's a tool you can use.
With the actual breathing you need to breathe from your diaphragm - so if you place one hand on your chest and one on your stomach and breath in, the hand on your stomach should lift rather than the hand on your chest. It can feel harder to do than shallow breathing, but it's a lot better because it pulls the air deeply into your lungs.
Um. So. Of course, you might already know that. But if you do, no harm done, I guess. My councellor explained pretty much the same thing to me and it helped me a lot. So ... yeah.

All the best, and I hope you manage to sort something out.

(I hear little machine pen things are being developed that can do blood things without breaking the skin, so let's hope they come along soon!)

ETA: You know, I suffer from anxiety disorders and I tend to pick at my skin too, when I'm stressed. For me it's a nervous energy thing, and I find it helps to have worry beads (or something similar like a necklace) to fiddle with if I just have to do something with my hands.